February 2011
136 posts
have you ever felt
just straight up not good enough?
i just sat in the mall for a few, sipping some chai tea from starbucks.
alone, watching each individual pass by.
the most interesting to watch, were peers in relationships.
teenagers, around the same age as you and me.
how peculiar, looking from the outside in.
some, grasping each other’s hands, laughing. smiling. but what is truly going on in their...
January 2011
180 posts
loveconquersalter-joy asked: I know we don't know each other too well but you're a wonderful girl. You deserve to smile more than anyone. Keep your chin up. You're beautiful and deserve the best. Good things will come your way <3
nicolegiggles-deactivated201106 asked: JESS. YOU ARE AMAZINNNGGGG. you can tell im serious by the fact that this is the second message im sending you today hahahahaha. i love you and your ranting post was fantastic... don't worry about people judging you because this is clearly a way to get stuff out... uhhh yeah youve seen me lately haha. keep your chin up babygirl <3 i love you and its all gonna be okay in the end. keep your...
let's start my ranting post...
right here :) ready, go!
post script: please excuse my language. i hope this doesn’t make whosoever eyes come across this judge me in anyway, shape, or form.
YOU: are a fucking bitch. you walk all over me, and to be quite honest, everyone else. and i’ve let you do it for about 6 years. you are nasty, bitter, pathetic, a liar, and honestly? just a MEAN girl. i emphasize mean. i take back calling...
johnnycblog asked: you shouldn't have to change. for anybody.
pinky promise.
i’m going to change, for you.
tried and failed, yet again.
i’ll never be good enough for you.
another sleepless night filled with tears.
living in this house.
destroys me.
each one of you, rip me apart.
piece.
by
piece.
by
piece.
each one of you, make my stomach churn and twirl in vicious circles.
each one of you, make me sick.
and the one i want to care? the one who i want to be here? isn’t. and never will be.
less than seven months.
before then, someone save me. i beg of you.
there is only so much one person can take.
just like a pot of hot water, if exposed to too much heat, it overflows.
i’ve reached my boiling point.
i can’t anymore.
here's to
another night of self-loathing.
you hate me? perfection; i hate myself too. but kid, there’s a longgggg line all thinking and feeling the same emotion as you. jump on the bandwagon love bug, even though i do believe you were one of the first to create it.
i babysat tonight; my escape. one of my only purposes on this earth is to fulfill the role as a mother. i can feel it in my bones....
everyone
in this entire world is a straight up ASSHOLE. honestly.
get me out of this lifeeeeee.
GIRLS:
ARE SUCH WHORES.
i just. i will never understand the thought process of certain females. ever.
i feel as though i will never be capable of being a part of, or comprehending just “getting” with someone.
swapping drunken spit over the course of an one night engagement? my apologies, not my cup of tea.
fuck youuuuuuuuu all haha. i’m invisible. phyiscally, mentally, and...
well.
i haven’t done my laundry in weeks.
i honestly have no more clean anything left.
i’m surprised i’ve lasted this long without having to do a single load.
however,
i am sleeping in your flannel.
goodnight.
Waiting for My Dawn
My life is in the dark, and I am all alone. I am starving for one spark, for he has gone.
With the increasing darkness hopes for the lights have grown. As the joy is awaited by my loneliness, I am waiting for my dawn.
When I think, why am I alone? Why everybody has gone? Why my night is so long?
I find reason as me.
I make one, I break one I win one, I loose one. It’s due to me that...
thought.
Sometimes, I look outside, and I think that a lot of other people have seen this snow before. Just like I think that a lot of other people have read these books before, and listened to these songs.
I wonder how they feel today.
thought.
Sometimes,I look outside, and I think that a lot of other people have seen this snow before. Just like I think that a lot of other people have read these books before, and listened to these songs.
I wonder how they feel today.
